Rainy days started again.

My sister's I-pod is lost in the house. I was feeling a bit upset and disappointed yesterday because of it. I thought my sister will blame it on me. I kept excluding myself and it was kind of stupid.

I'm partly not okay but I'm fine. I'm seeing an improvement in myself.

There are times that I neglect the truth and accept lies just to feel good. I get paranoid with my feelings and somehow try to make something right when its wrong but I will get over that attitude, I will remove that attitude fully. I know I will with God's help. I will shed off the negatives in me because as a servant of Jesus, we all should shed negatives as we grow.

I'm also struggling with impatience and lust. I'm constantly looking for love without commitment which is wrong. I am changing and I will change.